Sunday, August 30, 2009

Will the pain ever go away??

On Saturday night I was going to bed, Kristófer was sleeping in our bed and I laid there next to him and I was watching him sleep. He was so peaceful and adorable and I thought to myself how is it possible to love someone so much!!…..but then I started thinking about his birth and everything that has been going on since he was born. The thought about his birth and when I got him in my arms the feelings and the pain…..I was crying and I could not stop crying, it hurts so much inside, my hart was hurting. Im wondering if this pain will ever go away….will it always hurt so much inside?? Even though you love your child and you have gone forward with life and your baby as it is???


  1. I think it will come and go. When we see a child that is the same age as ours doing something that our child isn't doing yet or an older child or teenager doing something that we think our child will never do it will be hard. But you can't look into the future like that or you'll drive yourself crazy. Feeling down about it won't change anything so try to embrace it. There are things in this world that are so much worse than DS. Just try to live for today and don't worry about tomorrow. And remember, you're not alone in this!:)

  2. I think what Adrienne says is true. For me it comes and goes. For the most part I get sad when I think about Wysdom's health. That he needs a feeding tube and may need several more surgeries. I feel sad for him having to go through it. When I feel this way I usually go and get some books on ds or just special needs in general and read and connect with others stories. I also try to remember that we have it pretty. Wysdom smiles, bables, laughs... Wysdom's smile bounces me back out of my an instant! Sending you a big {{{{hug}}}. Hope you feel better.

  3. Sometimes I feel bad, or I get sad, but then I think wait a minute, since Emilia has been born we all have laughed and smiled so much more because of her. I don't know what the future holds, none of us can say for sure, but today is good, today is GREAT! Embrace it.