On Saturday night I was going to bed, Kristófer was sleeping in our bed and I laid there next to him and I was watching him sleep. He was so peaceful and adorable and I thought to myself how is it possible to love someone so much!!…..but then I started thinking about his birth and everything that has been going on since he was born. The thought about his birth and when I got him in my arms the feelings and the pain…..I was crying and I could not stop crying, it hurts so much inside, my hart was hurting. Im wondering if this pain will ever go away….will it always hurt so much inside?? Even though you love your child and you have gone forward with life and your baby as it is???